So this week is the end of an era for me, and I’m not sure how to feel about it.

For the last 4 years I have been going to Trivia every week. It started as part of an online date. I had been chatting to a lovely and very charming fellow who was a bit cagey about meeting me face to face. He had mentioned that he would be at Trivia, so I contrived to have a girls catch up at the same place, and at the end of the game, he and I had a drink and a chat.

He was not going to be the person for me, but we had a great conversation and are still friends. The girls and I had a lovely time – even though we came dead last, and made sure we came back the following week. The Black Widow’s Trivia team was born, and we have been there in one form or another every Tuesday for the last 4 years.

Well, a couple of weeks ago, our host announced the end of the show. He has family things and plans that are taking him in a different direction, and so that will close this chapter for me. The team are looking at different locations to keep up the tradition, which will be lovely, but it will also become something different in my world.

It’s funny just how much of an anchor our weekly Tuesday tradition has been for me. A small piece of certainty in an otherwise chaotic life, and time spent (for the most part) with other widows. We have laughed and cried, won and lost, pulled our hair out at entirely too many cryptic clues, celebrated birthdays and Christmases, and dressed up on more than one occasion. It has been great and I’m sad that it’s over!

This ending also comes at the beginning of all of my ‘sad dates’ for the year, which is funny timing for me, and a whole lot to process. Maybe this is the universe saying that I have got from it what I need to, and that I can let go of that anchor now. Either way, I wish our host and his family all the very best as they head off onto whatever adventures await them, and I want to say a huge thank you for all of the fun memories I have made puzzling my way through each Tuesday night. I’m sure my general knowledge has improved a whole lot and I know that there are a whole lot of random facts that now have space in my brain!!