Isn’t it funny how some things stay scary and overwhelming regardless of how long you’ve had to do them!? For me specifically it’s anything to do with banking and finances… that was always Clayties department (I’ve never been good with numbers). I know that I drive the boys insane with my carrying on over it all, but it just bamboozles me every time and I panic.

I’m in the process at the moment of changing some stuff over, and as much as I know that I am a fully functioning, capable adult, this stuff scares the crap out of me and I am constantly asking for help. I have learned tho that acknowledging the shortcomings and the who, what, when, where and why really helps with keeping the anxiety somewhat at bay. 5 1/2 years in this stuff is still all baby steps for me, and I feel like I’m running through a forest with a blindfold on.. every now and again I hit a target, but the rest of the time it’s a mad scramble! I’m hoping that eventually I’ll get to being ok with it!

This week, other than the bank stuff, has been a bit quieter – and that’s maybe not a bad thing! I did go out for a lovely lunch to celebrate a girlfriend’s birthday… and really, who can say no to a cocktail or two, sitting at a roof top bar overlooking the city, but other than that it’s been the usual work routine. The highlight for the week was obviously taking the Squish to the “Fire truck station” (see previous post) and seeing how happy he was about that!

I am starting to get excited for this years big trip to China… 60 or so days to go! – I will need to start doing some training for it … the description of the tour (read after we booked it) has me just a little bit nervous! Squat toilets on an overnight sleeper train, and non- renovated sections of the Great Wall to clamber over tell me that I should probably work on some fitness … but I am very excited for the adventure – and to add to the holiday photo books on my coffee table!

This year for me is about saying yes to things and for pushing myself out of my comfort zone even more than I have in the past. It means doing the scary Bank stuff, and leg exercises for squatting!… and trusting myself to keep going, even when it would be easier to curl up and hibernate. I don’t want to miss out on the experiences and new people that saying yes will bring. It’s all part of the rollercoaster, right!?