I’m not really sure where to start this weeks blog…I am speechless as the tragedy in Bondi and the grief that I feel for all of those people directly affected, as well as for the whole community.

So many people have had their wold world flipped in an instant – something that has an impact forever, and at a time of year that should be happy and joyous. It is heartbreaking.

I feel kind of lost and helpless at the weight of all that loss. I know how I feel missing Claytie, and how hard it has been to get through each day. I can not imagine what the impact of this even will have on so many people, and what that will do to the local community, and the wider Australian community. There is a huge sense of disbelief…this kind of stuff happens in other places, not here; and to have it happen here has shaken me.

I have had to turn off the tv and the constant stream of news. I understand that people want to understand, and to try and make sense of this horrible thing that has happened.. but a lot of it feels incredibly voyeuristic to me. News anchors almost giddy with ‘new details’ that come out from talking with witnesses who are clearly in shock. The video snippets on social media that show people falling after being shot… The finger pointing and blame that is happening, and the politicising of people’s grief.

I don’t know what else’s to say. I don’t believe in a God, and ‘thoughts and prayers’ feel hypocritical, but I guess love and light and positivity and kindness and gentleness are the basis for those prayers, so I wish all that for myself, for you and for those people in my world and yours that need it. We all need it x