This week was another quiet one… the lingering effects of whatever nastiness I had have been all kinds of fun! I have learned tho that I am not great at feeling miserable, and too much time on my own leads to all kinds of pity parties! … both actually things that I did already know, but have once again been reinforced!

To snap out of the funk I was in, I got myself organised, loaded up the adventure bed (something of a mission with a lack of fitness and decreased lung capacity from coughing) and took myself for a drive to the beach! It is honestly the very best way that I know to reset my brain! A perfect blue sky day, crystal clear water, whales and dolphins all make it really hard to stay miserable! … and a cuppa with a friend on the way home also helped!

It’s really easy to let yourself fall into a hole when you’re not feeling well and have spent entirely too much time on your own. I get an energy recharge from spending time with people, so when I don’t have that it’s easy to spiral into negative thinking. I know when I am doing it that it’s not right, but it’s really hard to get out of it when you don’t have the energy to do anything else… it’s a nasty vicious circle! I try really hard not to let myself stay down for too long… but do acknowledge that the feelings are valid and need to be felt.

The other thing that always helps is time with the Squish! He is just so full of life and joy that you have to cheer up (and collapse with exhaustion when he goes home!) … toddler energy is something else! I get to have him every Tuesday afternoon. I pick him up from daycare and bring him home to hang out at Birdies house. I love the chatting in the car – why is a favourite question for everything… and I love watching him with the uncles… it’s just love!

I’m happy to have only 4 days of work to get through and then 3 weeks off while we wait for Baby Brother to make his arrival!… I can’t wait! I know that it will be bittersweet missing Claytie for such a big life event, but I know that the love will be there from all of us x