This week has been a bit of a mixed bag. There have been the inevitable post holiday blues – and the subsequent research to see where I should go to next (my newsfeed is full of helpful advertisements for all kinds of tours). I have also been very grateful for another short week thanks to public holidays. The back to work depression wasn’t so bad given I only had to work two days!

For a whole lot of reasons, I have been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting on my past relationships lately, and this week in particular. D has been in touch and we have had a whole lot of very honest conversations. I am glad that we are able to talk again and go through some of the issues that we had. It definitely helps a whole lot, and it has been nice.

I have been told (and I know it anyway) that I have spent a whole lot of time over the last nearly 5 years running away and avoiding life – or as much as that is possible, and being in relationships has been part of that. If I stay busy then I don’t have to sit with the hard and heavy stuff so much. It’s always there… and it definitely raises its head, but it’s harder to be sad when you’re off having adventures…. And maybe now is the time to have a look at that some more. – I don’t know!?

Something I have realised tho, is that for now I am very happy to be single. I am in no hurry at all to dive back into any sort of relationships and dating. Maybe now is the time to get to know myself a whole lot better and let go of some of the pressure (real or just perceived) that I have put on myself. There isn’t a guide book for any of this stuff, and certainly no right or wrong, but maybe now is the time to just sit for a bit. I do feel like I am more settled and grounded in a whole lot of ways, but at the same time, just as clueless!

I’ve also had some lovely catch ups and conversations with a whole bunch of people, and there may have also been a few drinks had! I’m so grateful to my circle for always being there. I was also pretty happy to have a bit of Squish time… although the exhaustion of chasing a toddler at soccer was very very real! His energy is something to behold!

I hope your outlook is a happy one and that you have some fun trips planned – I’m happy to spruik the merits of Vietnam (and organised tours) to anyone who wants to listen! Thanks for being in my world and letting me take up this space every week xx