This week has been a weird one for me. Back at work after a lovely break for new years has brought with it some anxiety. It’s the beginning of a whole new year without Claytie in it, and my world is looking more and more different all the time. Not all of that is a bad thing, there are a lot of things that bring me a lot of joy, but it’s all an adjustment. There are so many things happening that I just want to tell him about – but almost all of them wouldn’t be happening if he was still here. It is very much a double edged sword!

My friend from the widows support group and I have been putting our heads together to work on our possible presentation at Camp for this year. It has been really good but also kind of scary. We would be talking to up to 100 people potentially and for as long as 75-90 minutes! That’s a lot of planning to do! It is not entirely locked in yet, but we’re treating it as though it is and making something that we’re pretty proud of.

We are looking to find someone to sponsor our presentation, so that we can give the people attending something to take away that will help to focus the message we’re wanting to send. – Feel free to get in touch if you think that could be you or your work place, I’m happy to talk about our plans with you! We also have another project in the works with quite a tight deadline which will keep us very busy! Hopefully we can make both things happen!

In other big news, I will be heading overseas later this year! Something that is both super exciting and also really scary! Last time I went to Germany was with Claytie and we had the most fabulous holiday. It was the year before he died, and it was one of the best things we ever did together. I love looking at all of the photos from our trip and remembering all of the fun that we had. It’s hard to think that I’ll be going over without him, but at the same time, travelling is absolutely what I want to do! I want to go everywhere and see and do everything, so I have to roll with it and feel the nerves to get to the excitement.

This trip will be with my new person, and we will be seeing all kinds of stuff that I have not seen before, as well as some familiar places. Our plan is to visit Singapore, England and Scotland and then some time in Germany! A whole month of adventuring toward the end of the year. I was always planning to do a big trip this year, initially on my own but meeting up with various friends in different places. We still plan on catching up with my friends, and I can’t wait for them to show us their favourite spots!

It feels real now…. Airfares have been bought and we’re locking in an itinerary of things to do and see! I know that with the way time seems to fly these days, it will be here before we know it! Fingers crossed my anxieties play nice between now and then!