Wow… another year finished, and it’s been a big one! It seems crazy and surreal that so many things can happen in a relatively short time frame – 365 days really does go by in a flash! It’s pretty amazing to look back over the last year and to think about all of the things that have happened and changed – both good and bad.

Everyday I am reminded how lucky I have been in my life. I have the most amazing support network around me, holding the boys and I up when we have needed it most. We have had important people come and go from our world which has rocked us, but we have become much closer for it. We all miss Claytie everyday, but how lucky were we to have had him for as long as we did. He was the very best husband and father and I am so lucky that he was my world for such a long time.

This year we have all been enjoying watching the Squish grow up and learn the world. That too has been both incredibly fabulous and bittersweet. Seeing the world through the eyes of a new human is fascinating.. everything is an amazing discovery and I’m sad that Claytie isnt here with us to experience it. He would love every minute and I know that they would have the cutest relationship. I can’t wait to see how his personality develops and I’m excited to hear him talk and learn more about the world around him.

I’m so grateful for my boys and the amazing men that they have become. I’m so very very proud of them and I know that Claytie would be too. They have been through some really hard stuff in the last three years and they haven’t let it make them bitter and angry. They have a whole lot of their fathers ‘it is what it is’ attitude, which is a fabulous thing and I love watching them live their best lives.

I am amazed that another year has flown past and I’m proud of myself for not just getting through it but finding so many moments of joy as well. All of it is bittersweet, but I know it is what Claytie would want for me and I know that I am ok! Right now I am being spoiled, spending the last weekend of 2023 sitting on a pier in Hervey Bay having a picnic with a fabulous human and it doesn’t feel real. Im nervously looking forward to seeing how this develops and what this next new becomes.

My wishes for all of you are that the new year brings with it joyful adventures, amazing moments with fabulous people and new memories that will make you smile. Thank you for being part of my world I’m so grateful to have you here xx