So I need to start this week with an update on my mum. She had her surgery after some delays (an ICU bed shortage meant we had to wait an extra day for her operation) and she is now doing as well as can be expected. Seeing her in Intensive care after the surgery was much more confronting than I had expected and tears happened (obviously!). It is a relief that the waiting for surgery is now over, it was a nervous thing for all of us, and an exercise is patience. Now that she is done, the doctors are pretty happy with her progress, but it will be a long road to recovery. Thank you so much for all the well wishes that came our way last week… you guys are the best!

The boys are feeling much better about Nannie too. Going and seeing her in hospital before the surgery did settle some of the ptsd, and the daily updates since are also helping. It’s been a huge thing for us and has brought back all kinds of traumatic memories from the day that Claytie died. Those memories are honestly never very far away, but we all have to find a way to live around them. This has been really hard, but we’re getting there.

It has absolutely been a very long week! Between work and hospital visits, I have no idea which day is which… tho that’s not always a bad thing! I did have a couple of days off in between and managed to tick a few things off my list – I had a couple of things to sort out with my unit to make it ready for a new tenant. A trip to ikea for some curtains ended up with new bed linen and a whole lot of candles – it’s a dangerous place!

Work is starting to feel more settled, although there are a couple of people who are still taking some of the shine off. I did raise some concerns with the boss and was told ‘that’s just who she is’. An explanation that covers a whole lot, but is also unsatisfactory. If you know someone is difficult and mean for the sake of it, surely that should be addressed rather than accepted!? … anyway, I need to park that for my own sanity and just be myself. I am loving most of what I do at work (soooo many stories!), so that is a bonus.

A high point for me this week was breakfast with a couple of very handsome chaps (you know who you are!), followed by an adventure drive in the countryside – thanks for your company, I had a lovely time! I also managed to get to trivia this week (shift work has impacted on that a little bit) and a very entertaining couple of hours at Karaoke with some of my favourite singers on stages finished the week.

Hopefully this next week is suitably uneventful. I have another stint of night shifts coming up which will be interesting, and I’m looking forward to a couple of days at the coast with friends at the end of the week all things going to plan. Ongoing hospital visits with my mum and trying to keep my anxiety at bay will fill in the rest of the time.